Oh dearest Hilary - I f*cking love this gal! Despite her being millions of miles away, she continues to inspire me to be a better person. I encourage you to read this excerpt from her blog, the post being titled "Your biggest Bully"

"..... Your biggest bully is, essentially, yourself.Lately, I have been really beating myself up, just because of being rejected from so many jobs that I thought I should have gotten. It's pretty disheartening when you don't get a job you know you should have gotten. But this is when I have been getting the best of myself...thinking I'm not worthy of anything, that the employers didn't like how I looked, that I didn't do something right, blah blah blah. We are our biggest bullies. It's that little guy in the back of our minds that just starts talking out of no where, and getting us down. There is a comedian by the name of Christopher Titus who calls his guy in the back of his head, his retard. Now I do not like to use the "r" word, because I have been around MH kids all my life because of my mom, but I feel that using the "r" word in this context fits. The r-tard is always trying to bring us down, and we don't know why. So, don't listen to him or her. Put a face to him/her. Whenever, Mr./Mrs. R-tard puts us down, we should start saying something positive to ourselves for every negative thing that Mr/Mrs R-tard says. Easier said than done, I know. But maybe start with one at a time. It just makes me sad when I see all these beautiful people being self-conscious because of another girl walking in who is "hot". These people need to stop listening to their R-tard; no joke. And yes, I do need to take my own advice, and it might take me awhile to, but it will probably take us all awhile to follow this. But like I said, one step at a time. 
Maybe we should all sing "Beautiful" to ourselves in the mirror everyday. Wow, what a great way to start the day! LoL...."

We are beautiful is every single way, yes, words can't bring us down
[now tell me it's not in your head :) ]

The girl is RIGHT! I too find it hard to practice what I preach. Not going to lie - there are times where I wonder if I had just been a little bit thinner or a little bit more impressive would that person would have like me? Would I have gotten that opportunity if I had been someone other than myself? Then, I have to remember - We are our own biggest bullies and in our journey to self love we need to learn to silence that bully - it will be a constant battle at first, but eventually, it will become your nature and the bully will leave you alone! What a day that will be, eh? 

is shortly


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